This is sort of an epiphany of some kind… It came to my realization last night and I was sort of in a trance of I should be banging my head on the wall as its so simple and so crystal clear. I realized that I shouldn’t compare my life with others as my wants and needs are different from everyone else. Sometimes when the phase has passed and it suddenly dawned that I am who I am and I may not be like my sisters or my friends as I am uniquely me… things or experiences that they might have, may or may not be well accepted by me… I understood that now… I was devastated when I get to know that a certain someone has these special and unique experiences and they looooooovveeeee it… I tried to get the same kind of feeling but I found out that I don’t enjoy it… it’s weird but so true… I realized now that God is wonderful and He created me in such a way that I am Me… Do I make sense?
My leave application has been approved: yeah… I have my long awaited ME-time tomorrow. I’ve longed for a facial and a thorough session of mani/pedi… that’s the reason why I’m here doodling my thoughts in the virtual web as my mind is already on tomorrow. There are thousands of stuff happened since my last entry: when was it again? Yeah about almost a month ago… tomorrow April of 2010 comes knocking. Life has been really good to me. I’ve been a busy wife, mom and employee… I wished I could jot down everything that had happened for me to look back, reminisce and maybe laugh about the experience and the lesson learnt but I’m just plain lazy now… I’ll let you know one thing: I’ve come to my own conclusion that I actually don’t give a rat-ass about what people outside the circle of my life think about me… gossips and hearsays are often hurtful but why want to bother? I should have followed my gut instinct and just don’t bother because the more I explained, things worsen *I felt* so it’s muc...
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